Rahasya – My man
This is about Rahasya . Well he has expressed about himself mostly . A person , so different , I never thought that a person like him could exist . He has this unique capability of being confident about himself that he would do nothing wrong . He likes doing mistakes in sex ie he likes to be the Mr.Bad Guy with regards sex.
Rahasya has this unique feelings about sex :
1) He loves to see me bitching
2) He comes faster when he imagines me bitching than he himself having me
3) HE loves me wearing dress and act and behave like a prostitute.
4) He likes me when I am drunk and not in my senses and in that we have sex.
He makes me do everything that satisfies his and my desire including a strip show or self fcuking . Before I began my affair he had been encouraging to have sex with another guy and then asked me to tell abt it when he is making love to me next time.
HE comes faster when I tell him the imaginary situations in which I am having sex with another guy than those that involves both of us. HE asks me to strip in front of another guy as he is watching and he gains so much pleasure from the very thought. However the thought that gives him the maximum pleasure is the fact that I enjoy all this profanity a lot.
I am lucky to have such a man who is perfectly compatible in this blend of thought for sex which matches exactly with mine.
But it is not the main thing for which I like him. He is frank in whatever he says , he is not the type who say one thing at ;one moment and chage their stance at another moment . I really love Rahasya
Profanity from the girl side
Yes I am the girl about whom rahasya has been writing. This is to the person who has sent ethical suggestions as to how a girl should be ………….. I know what I am and as far as I have understood myself I know what is sex to me and I do distinguish between love and sex. Well according to me sex is related to body and love is related to heart. You love a person whom you trust completely. And I think trust does not mean that you place your body only the hands of the person you love.
I really love rahasya …….. and I value his feelings and so does he value mine. I had a wonderful time with Rahasya before he left to another country . The sudden deprivation I could not bear. I dont know how I spent these 9 months without him or sex. But the desire had reached alarming proportions that I could not suffice with the virtual sex we were having . So I chose this outlet only after informing rahasya coz I love him and I dont want to betray him. I would have backed off if he said the one word “NO” . This is love.
I accpet there is difference in doing sex with the one you love and one you dont. But isnt variety the spice of life until it doesnt involve betrayal ? This is what I believe. Life is small , so enjoy it and dont break your heads as to what somebody else thinks of your behaviour. You hold responsibility for your actions and act accordingly . I promise you will love your life.
Profanity, Now
She actually had it the last friday. She met this guy and talked with him and thought he was safe, came back to net and asked me about it. I gave go ahead and she spend the night with him. The go ahead was not an easy one, I was almost in tears when I told her that, I did it mostly for the heck of it. Also the hours after she gone was tortoresome, I became completely restless. But good thing that guy was bad and she did not enjoy it as she would have done normally. May be she got used to me and she would like to have it only that way. When I asked her whether she would continue the relaionship, she said no. Its not worth the heck.
But again the night she started talking with that over the net and they decided again to do it. And she agreed. But I put a break on all this, I asked to stop it or dont tell it to me. Its disturbing me a lot and also my profanity is increasing. I am not seeing any limits to it.
Profanity, Now
There came a twist in our relationship with she telling me 2 weeks back that she had sexual talk with another guy. Though I always liked the idea of my wife having sex with another guy, I really did not ask her to do it.
I don’t what prompted me to do it, whether its a wish to satisfy her desires or to experience the pleasure of knowing that my wife is bitching. I encouraged her to do it. So day after day she started talking with that guy and they are talking real sex now.
The worst part in this is, I am asking her and giving hints of how to advance the relationship. I am asking her how did she talk with him and I would come hearing that. I would ask her tell me what you would do if he was here and she would tell me I would come. She is making me come daily for 4-5 days with her talks and description.
One day, she gave show to that guy in net and I was also watching it on my cam.That made me crazy.
And finally, today she is meeting the guy outside, though its not for sex, I think she would it in a couple of weeks with him.
I know all this is wrong, but why am I liking it? I never have an intention of having an affair, but why am I encouraging her? I really wanted to know, I wanted to understand the psychology behind this strange behaviour. I know this is an unkempt path, but we are going in it. I am sure she will not stop it, until I ask her because she loves sex and like the touch of a Man. Since i am not there, she is requiring an outlet and she would do it if its not a problem for it.
I want to know and try to come of this path.
My profanity- 8 years back
I am writing this blog to analyze myself and if possible get feedback. The issues discussed in this blog are not something that can be taunted, so I am using an Alias.
My sexual profanity started at the age of 15(now I am in 22). My profanity is never in actions only in thoughts till the last one. But in the last one, I encouraged my girl friend, to have an affair and she started it. This is a long story cut short.
First, I will write how it started at 14. Like all boys of my age of my country, (India) I started with thinking about sex and asking queer questions to myself. Since I would not get any real knowledge about it from my family or education, I have to go for unsolicited sources-magazines, friends. My first thoughts of sex were, how to break the rules.
Daily at night, I have to imagine something about sex and it became a routine till date. Even before I know about masturbation , I started thinking about having sex with more than one woman. Some of my early thoughts
1. Tie several women on large flat panels stripped down( mind you, by then I even did not see a naked women, not even a picture). Then have one of them each day. I dont even know then, what is sex or what is penetration but the desire is such or my thoughts are such. I even did not know what it means to have several women. But from that day, I never get masturbation if I think of straight sex.
2. Kidnap several women, and keep each of them in seperated rooms. Have each of them on a daily basis, each one for each day. If I get bored dispose them off(not kill but let them go). This place is top secret and no one knows expect me. So even if those tried to get me caught, they cant since the place is a top secret. I imagined it to be an island or a place in the middle of a jungle, which is highly secured with electric mesh, cameras and all such.
etc. etc..
This thoughts later evolved into desires on my family members, though the period was brief, I felt them. I tried to repress them but they bouned back with double. Thanks to psychology magazine , I just let the thoughts go and I was freed of those thoughts.
After this stage started my most raunchy ideas.
Profanity – One year back
My girl friend, with I am engaged is staying in a different country. She is really sex monster and always demands for it. I am sure she had a relationship before I came to her life. Well, she is kind of person, who thinks that, sex is always a pleasure no matter where it comes from, while I used to think quite the opposite, I thought sex can be done only with the person whom we love.
Between us, sex started in the phone, we talked sex and I told her what all things I would do to her, given a chance.
But, she never had any affair while I am with her. We stayed in different cities, then and whenever we meet its most for some sexual pleasure. We found a place where we can anything but for insertion and we did almost all the times. She is always demanding and bold. Always wanting more and never says dont stop to any thing.
Our first real sexual encouter was in a movie theatre. Though I did not have any notion of having sex, she started it with a soft bite on my neck. She was leaning on my shoulder, and I was holding her hand and suddenly she started playing with my neck. Then the man in me rose, a girl took a first step !! No, so I rounded arm my around her and push her towards me. Then I started pressing her breasts and immediatly I liked it. They are soooooo Soft and fluffy, that I couldn’t leave my hands of them. I was appalled to see a small hardness in her boobs after some pressing. I continued doing that for a while and I could visually see her pleasure. Man! she is liking it. So I then advanced one more step and tried to her down. But that was not possibly by her dress and also she resisted it for some later. Even then I could play with her tummy back, show my strenght of arms by pressing her back and boobs. All this is in a cinema hall and my left hand! Later in the movie she pressed my organ from the top and got a different kind of pleasure for the first time in my life.
